I’m no different than anyone else… at least according to this world’s standards. I have a family, bills to pay, and I deal with stress and worry. Recently, I resigned from my company where I was making a really good salary. Life was good, I never really worried too much about money. But, I felt led into leaving and starting something new. So I took a big risk and trusted God that He will direct my steps.
So here I am two months later. I’ve been overwhelmed at times with feelings of despair, discouragement, and fear. I often wake up in the middle of the night for 1-2 hrs thinking. It’s not that I’m not enjoying what I’m doing… to be honest, I love what I’m doing. But, there is no certainty. I might lose my house where I have built a life-time of memories with my kids and wife. I don’t know what will happen with the business I’m building and to make matters worse, I might end up in a lawsuit that has the potential to bankrupt me.
How do I get through it all? In the most unexpected moments, He speaks to me. All the sudden the rays of His love break through and light up my heart. I sense His unconditional, unfailing love. And where there is perfect love, fear has no place. He reminds me that what truly matters is already done. The Magnificent is in me and I in Him. Isn’t that the end game? What could matter more than that? That He is in me, and I in Him. I would give up everything for this and yet I have it today. I’m already rich. I already have the most significant treasure in the universe. So what could possibly matter more than this?
As I ponder on this wonderful reality, my feelings of despair, discouragement and fear seem to be dissipate as the rays of His love break through. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow or next week or next month. I don’t know how my life will change. But, I do know one thing… the most powerful being that IS love lives within me and my family is in His hands. So I rest knowing that in each moment of my life nothing has really changed. I’m still loved by Him and He has a plan for me that will not change despite all the risk and uncertainty.